- Kamini -
'Try to understand what I am telling. You shouldn't have left her'
'Are you cracking a joke.' Dipak grinned over the comment, after a pause he begins.
'Have you not been observing her apathy, her callous behavior. She has completely forgotten the rapport we had made for each other. What do you think I have left her, rubbish ,She left me in lurch instead.
'What apathy you are talking about.' Rehan interrupted.
'She doesn't behave in same manner since we had met first time and the way our friendship kept progressing. Now Whenever I go to see her she behaves in strange way as if she doesn't know. Am I looking older, richer than her or I hurt her ever.?' Dipak replied vehemently.
'Then Why did she suddenly change her behavior ' Rehan asked.
'I don't know the exact reason behind her oblivious attitude.'
' I think she might have got new boyfriend since you don't have same charm, attraction what you had in beginning of your relation.' Rehan said giving soft smile.
' So it is obvious if she chose her new boy friend how can she continue her relationship with me'
'So when are you planning to go back'
'Next Sunday'
'Have you informed her about your plan'
'Yes,
'and what was her reaction ?'
'As usual she didn't respond.' Dipak replied taking sip of tea.
Dipak came to commercial city years back to make career after attaining professional degree from small town. During his stay in strange place he came across with Kaamini Kaushal, a girl belonged to middle class society, her taciturn nature, her aspiration to bring up her small family in equivalent to her prosperous neighbors. Dipak fell in love as soon as he saw her even though having thought that the girl she is going to befriended might jeopardize his ambition since Kaamini was ostensibly not looking so gorgeous, so attractive what Dipak used to dream about his partner before stepping inside the city. Dipak had overestimated his smartness, the environment wherein he had nurtured his mental state, he was expecting his partner more attractive, more fascinating, smart enough which could beautify his personality as well. Dipak fell in love because of her simplicity, her generosity towards middle class boy of small town who had entered into the city with dream. She had also embraced Dipak, a novice who was taking lesson as to how to strengthen relation with strange girl. Dipak also never let her feel that she doesn't fulfill the criteria what he had set for himself.
Sometimes he would feel that his relation with a mediocre Kaamini was compulsion as soon as such thought would come into his mind he immediately shrugged it off when he appraised himself in comparison with Kaamini having tried to change his mentality saying ' Dipak, you don't deserve more than that, look up at yourself, think about your personality, Ambition you had set for yourself, thought that pervaded in your mind are completely impertinent, whatever target you have set for yourself not bad at all , but look at your preparation, your personality, your background. Could it have got you better than Kaamini.? His inner voice would make him awake, he would grin over his immature thought immediately he begins to like his simple, lovely, strange Kaamini, a girl who was born for the persons like Dipak.
Dipak begins to like her, gives his most of the time in order to please her, strive to attain her love, Sometimes acquaintances get astounded, gave ridiculous look on such bonding on unmatched combination, some would scoff at Dipak for his relationship with simple looking girl. Dipak kept dedicating his time and energy having ignored comments of others.The more he tried to make Kaamini happy, the more he fond himself happy, his personality kept developing with passing of time, he felt himself handsome, attractive. He would never give attention on comment of people as far as his relation with Kaamini was concerned. Both did want to see relation of each other flourishing.
Kaamini would blush on dedication, love, affinity what Dipak kept on showering her. She also begun to like her, She wanted to make her love grow, wanted to see Dipak on pinnacle of success, Since she herself belonged to mediocre strata of society hence she also at times got demoralized having evaluated her limitation. Their love, likeness, affinity kept growing even after knowing their limitation, impediments which more or less would come on their way.
Dipak was a simple family oriented boy. He never thought any things beyond his family, he would take every step in keeping view of his family and his future, he wanted to please members of his family from his limited resources since this gesture gave him immense happiness. Kaamini always asked about members of his family, his siblings, since she saw Dipak gettig depressed whenever she asked about his family. His rough answer to her about his family immensely annoyed her. She sometimes would get irritated over his blunt reply. This is the only issue whereupon both would fight each other, perhaps only issue which would often strain their relationship which had enough potential to mar their relationship. This is the only issue where Dipak eventually would bow down before Kaamini. She also knew that her future, her growth linked with happiness of him so she wanted to find out the factors which were effecting their relationship on the other hand Dipak found himself vulnerable when She would pose questions related to family matters.
Dipak and Kaamini maintained their relationship which had resulted growth of both of them but somewhere strain persisted between them, the factors which had put hurdle in between were crystal clear. Dipak could not come out from family imbroglio whereas Kaamini wanted him to come clean from it.
With the passage of time Kaamini begun to keep distance from him since she had known that she could not prolong her relation with Dipak she begun to suspect on his credibility she begun to ask herself how she could maintain coordial relation with Dipak who himself failed to sustain relationship with his own one. Scuffle kept growing between them since both wanted to have solution but situations didn't allow them to sort out, Kaamini knew that she was going to loose her beloved, ek Chahnewala on the other hand Dipak was finding himself helpless.
A fortnight back, Dipak realized that he couldn't further live in such situation, so one day he finally took her view. Kaamini remained silent she didn't reply in affirmative.
Sunday. Dipak called up Rehan to come in his room assisting in packing his baggage. Rehan is close friend of Dipak, a well wisher, Rehan also came to commercial city to make his career, perhaps also waiting to befriended with new Kaamini, much stronger contender than him for to win heart of new Kaamini Kaushal. Rehan didn't want Dipak to leave her but he was also helpless since Kaamini had already turned her face away from him. In a fit of anger Dipak decided to leave city wherein he went through sour and sweet memories, precious time he had spent with Kaamini. while packing baggage Dipak tossed up an Album on Rehan,s lap.
'What is this'
'Memories of City, photos with Kaamini' Dipak replied smilingly.
Rehan kept on turning over the pages of album. Sometimes he gave smile on photo over their peculiar style while being snapped, scene of locations of city.
'Did you have not any other option apart from Kaamini' Rehan asked looking up at Dipak who was making place to put his jeans inside his bag.
'Not at all, I cannot think anything beyond Kaamini and when she replied negatively I had no other option except leaving place since I liked the place because of Kaamini' Rehan said peering at Album.
'Will you come back again'
'Not in near future' Rehan replied after pause he continued
'You know why because I loved her much and the way she has been behaving with me during last couple of years, she broke my heart, she created disgusting feeling inside me i have begun to hate from my surrounding too. My friendship, relationship with her vanished instantly when she remained quite ignoring my queries.'
Dipak and Rehan reached station half an hour before departure time. Dipak put his baggage beneath the lower birth. After spending sometimes in bogey , train gave signal Rehan got down from moving train giving light hug to his friend.
'Take care of yourself and all the best for new Kaamini Kaushal.' Dipak said smilingly.
'OK by, have nice journey' Rehan replied waving his hand.
Train chugged moving slowly towards its destination. Dipak was sitting on his birth with others commuters looking lost in thought perhaps he was thinking about his own destination and the blurred plan, a plan which was incomplete because of sluggish mental state.
After half an hour he lay down on his birth, closed his eyes. Dipak remembered his first meeting with Kaamini, a plump simple girl, not so attractive but generous enough, looking also eager to make friendship with Dipak, an outsider, stranger, enthusiastic, who came from remote town carrying burning desire to be liked by girl like beautiful Kaamini. Arrival of co passenger on next birth distracted him he tossed himself to other side abandoning the spate of memories coming into his mind.
Train had reached on its destination. He came out from plate form headed towards bus stand to catch bus for his native town. He was looking out through windows, closely watching activities around. Bizarre Smile spontaneously knocked on his lips, a smile which had taken him again to commercial city, a place where he was abandoned by his love Kaamini, Dipak asks himself ' Will he be able to succeed in getting favour of new Kaamini here or he will have to spend rest of his life in remembrance of old Kaamni.'
End
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