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Namrata drags a  chair near the window of her room, sits down on it , leaning back on it  she  looks out through the window towards the garden where different kinds of  little birds were jumping  off  one branches to others, Melodious voice  of  koel draws special attention of her, her eyes search out the place  of  koel from where  she is spreading her melodious voice in surrounding, cold breeze of morning  is engaged in performing its own duties assigned by nature, sometimes it would get revolted, decried command of nature when it looks at the beauty of Namrata, it begins spreading fragrance of jasmine  around her as if  likes to win her heart. it  begins to titillate her by playing with her hair making her hair unkempt, she brings  her unkempt hair back from her face by tips of fingers giving soft smiles at birds jumping, playing from one tree to another.

Cold breeze, silent atmosphere, loneliness  her only companion of morning ever since she had left her hostel after completion of her master in chemistry. Occasionally she  chats with her friends of college on Facebook. She remembers her college days, hostel life  when she  along with friends woke up early in morning  jostling each other to go first in bathroom to get freshed , excursion on way to college and the appreciative look of boys  inside the college campus on her simplicity, delicacy and sort of some special attraction she has had which made her different  from her other colleagues. Ever since she left hostel her only activity at home after completion of household work is to engage in painting, a hobby of childhood days which  she had still  kept  alive. She rises from chair, moves towards table, picks her laptop from table and came back on chair. Today memories of her college days  tease her immensely. She opens the file  My Diary.xls. a computer file wherein she jotted down all sad and pleasant  moments of his  college and hostel days as well as small and big incidents she had came across away from home.

Namrata goes through the pages one by one silently, suddenly she stops on  a name written in bold letter in the left corner of page. ' Saurabh Raj'. After murmuring few words down the headline she closes her eye.

Suarabh Raj an intelligent, studious, creative, talkative, only one among her friend's circle Namrata liked to spend most of her leisure hour with him. Her only friend with whom she enjoyed roaming inside the campus. Her other friends were surprised ,felt jealous over their proximity since everybody wanted to get closed to Namrata. With the passage of time their proximity kept increasing, their friendship  were getting stronger. Namrata couldn't  ascertain the level of friendship which had been developing between them day by day. Things which kept attracting her towards Saurabh was, his taking care attitude towards his colleagues, respect, his concentration and consistency towards his goal, purpose for which he had joined college. 

Growing affinity towards each other was taking new dimension, although She knew that  her friendship was confined to a limit since the void between them is so large that she could not imagine that this friendship  could have converted into everlasting  relation. On one side she couldn't imagine going  against the wishes of her parents, On the other hand  she was seeing every quality in  Saurabh what she had imagined in her future life partner. 

Blow of cold breeze had slackened, rays of morning sun had begun moving silently  in through the window, impatient to give a kiss on  her innocent face, perhaps  rays of sun also doesn't want to  lag behind  in  demonstration of its love to her. She opens her eyes, blinks it for moment she rises up from  the chair comes back on her bed with lap top, a befitting reply to rays of sun showing that she also enjoys hide and seek game being played with her.

Namrata keeps clicking on the pages of file My Diary. She stops on second paragraph 

'I am feeling alone today. Saurabh, more than my friend today gave farewell party in     college to us  He is going to join custom Department after qualifying in competition. I never expected that he would leave college in mid way.

My only friend of college who was so closed to my heart yet I could not express  my feeling, emotion, love  I had towards him. My friendship sometimes bewildered  my colleagues they began to think that we were not only just friend but I don't know what kind of affinity we had that we couldn't express our feeling to each other perhaps we were knowing our limitations, our social compulsion that might have become an impediment  between us that is why both of us couldn't express  our  feeling to each other.

Though we have promised each other to keep in touch on Facebook...........'

Namrata keeps changing pages later she stops 

'Today my examination is over  I have to attend for viva-voca day afer tomorrow...........'

After going through cursorily on other pages her eyes stopped on the paragraph.

'It is coincidence today I am a bit happy and sad too. Saurabh is going to be engaged next week. He gave me this news while we were chatting .He also tagged the photo of  the girl with whom he is going to spend his  life.  I wished him for beginning of new life  with  my heavy heart since still  I couldn't ward off my feeling what I have had towards him. It is not  my foolishness then what, that still i am carrying memories of days we spent together.Now I shall have to try to  forget those memories of past. Let him start his new life. I shall not chat much now with him...............'

Namrata doesn’t go further she switched off her computer, she moves towards window, gave glance  at garden, chirping of birds had decreased, increasing rays of sun had  taken plants, shrubs and trees in its embrace which now got exhausted dancing on tune of morning cold breeze. 

She remembers the conversation of last night on dinner with her parents. Spontaneous soft smile comes on her lips when she remembers about  Ajay, her distant cousin,  a childhood buddy, intelligent, naughty now  research fellow in University  of science and technology. Parents of Ajay two days back had sent marriage proposal for their son with Namrata. That night on dinner her parents had taken  her view.

She tries to remember each and every activity of Ajay she saw during her childhood days. She envisioned him now in keeping view of his childhood activities. She has hazy picture of Ajay since she didn't see him since longtime. She still didn't forget the  childhood moments perhaps only string which is enough to reduce her loneliness.

Sudden knock at the door distracted her. She opens the door
.
"Namrata, Will you not take breakfast ?

'Yes Mom I am coming' Namrata replied slowly and came out from room


                                                End.

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