Skip to main content
A page of my diary

Kavita is  in fact not different from others although others call her egocentric because she thinks only about herself because she always takes care of my pain, my problems, my grievances, my welfare and happiness but if she really is self centered in her feeling then what  is wrong in her approach as her self-centered feeling is the consequence of her deep love for me, if we both care for each others then why are being targeted. If people don’t like our affinity, our feeling for each others, why don’t they close their eyes. We don’t like  people to look at us with a disgusting feeling, at our love. It is true that we are a part of society, we must take care of surroundings and society instead of confined within self and exposing our likeness towards each other. At the same time we don’t like others to pry into our silent love  it is also fact the Ishq can not be hidden but what can we do we can not stop loving each others. Our only mistake is that we like open place to express our affinity towards each which surroundings hates. we don’t cease  our act of smooching in open place which is supposed a taboo in our society. Even though her posture, look, attitude are not at par with the others beauties nevertheless she looks lovely. We don’t care what people say about our open friendship, our so called immoral acts and her mediocre look but our love, affinity, likeness are getting more consummated with each passing day.

The things which had brought me closer to her is not her physical beauty, her fascinating complexion, her attire but her flight of imagination, her deep thought, discerning ability and interpretation of  events although I agree that some of her readers did not coincide with her but I had become ardent fan of her creative works.

It was her poetry, her love for poetry, her imagination, depth in depicting the feeling through her Shaeri always had fascinated me when i first went through her poetry and later her anthology of poems. I got mesmerized by her flight of imagination, depiction of nature through the conduit of set of simple words, her every creation was reflection of emotion of a disgruntled girl, reflection of experiences she had gone through, her frustration, exploitation and expression of courage to face the adversities.             
    
But  who I am ? I am fugitive who ran away from the battle field and being incarcerated in prison for treason. I don’t justify  people’s perception  giving me name of fugitive since I liked struggling though it is different things that I could not become good fighter or I didn’t deserve for what I chose in my life. I got a bad name for cowardice, for the act of treachery and here in prison I met Kavita through her poetry, a girl who depicted life in her own way, her imagination which I could perceive as if she wrote only for me, her every poem was reflection of life of an ordinary human being. It touched my heart although some times my mind didn’t allow me to accept some of her logic and rationalization of event.  

Gradually I was getting an ardent fan of her creative thinking and one day I jotted down my emotion and sent it to Kavita expressing my love for her thought, flight of the her imagination, praising her sensibility. Kavita responded “ I am sorry it is not poetry but it is meaningless or a ludicrous overflow of emotion  I can  understand only. I wish to know what  meaning you have taken out from humiliating, rubbish and blurred words’ I immediately replied what I understood and thus our friendship kept progressing, her poetry now was revolving around the experiences and life of her only fan that was me. I was getting attached to her poetry and her poetry had begun to take new shape, a shape of self humiliation, self ridiculing, insanity. Her image had further got tarnished ever since I came into her contact. Gamut of her art had confined to an individual. Now our blossoming friendship had become subject of her poetry. Sometimes it looks idiotic but Kavita had already confessed that she writes for herself, enjoys her own creation, if people don’t like her creation she doesn’t mind because she does not write for them, she writes for herself and for me.

Today I received a message from her asking me to write few words for her new anthology of poetry. I am forwarding one of the pages of my diary which I have written for her.


End

Comments

Post a Comment

Popular posts from this blog

         Circums…Time and Tense        Time & Tense is on of the essential parts of book of grammar of all languages so if we fail to understand it we can neither speak. write correctly nor understand the literature properly. Language does not remain language it dies if we fail to learn the lesson of Time & Tense. Similarly, Circums..Time and Tense is one of the essential lessons of grammar of our life which anyhow need to be understood and observe meticulously. If we fail to qualify in this test of Circums..Time and Tense, Life remains no more.   In fact we should try to excel in and figure out how to overcome this difficult lesson like other chapter of grammar of life  only then we may be able to not only control but succeed to an extent in bringing a balance in journey of life. Creator of all languages is human beings so we very well know how to excel in overcoming the lesson of Time & Tense t...
Post a Comment
Read more

Celebrate The Moment

We are to celebrate new year. The way tik tik of second of clock in morning send out message to get ready, make plan of the day similarly count down tik tik of 2019 calls out some of us to make new resolution, new plan for the next year with keeping in account of previous year\s failures and success.Some of us do make new resolution for the next year according to their individual aspiration and capacity. But this is also undeniable reality that uncertainty is an integral part of every one’s life just like uncertainty in the weather is part of our eco-system.In fact it gets difficult to live life the ways one wants or plans but yes one can certainly make life a bit easy and turn life into worth celebration by enjoying every single moment whatever come in the way. Why should one wait for a year to have grand celebration. Why should not we enjoy the moment wholeheartedly irrespective of thinking about good or bad. In fact every single moment of ones life is...
Post a Comment
Read more
Habits die hard People keep changing their hobbies with the time and circumstances but if anyone of us get addicted to any particular hobby it becomes difficult to quit it easily that is why one had said ‘ Habits die hard.’ Although I disliked company of one of my close acquaintances , Shahrukh, who was known for his cynical behavior and fastidious attitude nevertheless I have always enjoyed his logic and reasons which he used to put during the arguments whenever we used to sit together. In fact it would not be wrong to say that he had great habits of maligning others and enjoyed unnecessary criticism on the issues which neither pertains to him nor me. But for the last few months we did not see each other and when we saw him few days back I could not believe on my eyes. He had become so feeble that I was hesitating to even enquire about him. Shahrukh gave a smile as if inviting me to come and enquire about him. I hesitatingly asked him ‘ Shahrukh, how did it hap...
Post a Comment
Read more
Telling a lie ! ha ha ha ? Growing tendency of ‘ telling a lie’ is an authentic testimony that we are living in the age of kalyug. Apart from greediness. Cheating, dishonesty in short all things which devalue human beings and corrupt the society, lie is also flourishing everywhere immensely. If we look around we find that right from the corridoor of power to the tiny room of two blood relatives, lie has penetrated immensely in life. We can not keep ourselves away from it because we love our surroundings more and concern less about the surrounding we will have to spend later after forsaking present one. Religion is taking a space of joke. Our efforts are confined to make surrounding heaven for ourselves therefore we are forced to follow the path which is contrary to the basic tenets of social norms. In fact human mind is getting sharper day by day with the passage of time that is why our efforts to control over the things such as money, power, status etc through the means which...
Post a Comment
Read more
Just….Kidding !!!!!! Even an iota of thoughts which don’t agree with the tenets of religious faith stands a person in line of non believer, blasphemy. Most of the answers of the questions which emerge relating to religion emphasizes on believing blindly in the existence of invisible omnipotent. Curiosity of human beings about discovering almighty who is omnipresent compels them to come out with new ideas, new concepts and new belief. In fact hundreds of beliefs and religions are the result of same curiosity to find out the truth behind the existence of the supreme power who controls over every movement of its creatures on this planet. Almighty instead disappointing seeker of truth, trickle a few drop of wisdom but mystery of its exact location/whereabouts it hardly shares clearly with anyone. When science tries to become powerful, it gets a bit, when humankind engrosses in realm of mystery in order to search the existence of omniscient he is also not disappointed but imparted a s...
Post a Comment
Read more
Tension Lene Ka Nae.. Tension Dene Ka ! Barring a few fictitious & fabricated scenes or stories , movies have been a true reflection of our social surroundings and some of their dialogues are so popular and meaningful that they often run on our lips.     ‘ Tension lene ka nae .. tension dene ka ! is one of the most prevalent among the dialogues. In fact the killer instinct of a person is reflected always from the dialogue when some utter it and acts accordingly in order to put other in trouble. Medical science says that ‘ Tension turn into a disease and which is called     ‘ Silent killer’ hence if person suffers from it   for a long time , his life becomes short. Question rises as to why this particular dialogue ‘ Tension lene ka nae .. tension dene ka ! is spoken by section of people more often. We find the answer of it from the game of football.   In the game of football there are offenders/striker, defenders who play crucial role...
Post a Comment
Read more
Bura … na Koi We hardly see people accepting their flaw, mistakes or saying ‘I was wrong. We always keep searching flaws, wrong doings , shortcomings, bad behavior, bad manners, etiquette in others but hardly introspect. We hardly look at others in positive way. Even though we keep committing mistakes but hardly accepts them with open heart. Criticism of others is daily routine of our life. In fact we may have to think hundred times before blaming others if we honestly introspect but it does happen since our all attention is towards digging out others wrong doings, flaws. This is also fact that no one is immaculate. Everyone of us runs after name, fame, money, luxury life, surpass others in the race of material gain but all such things don’t come easily or walking right way. Firstly God has created innumerable kind of character secondly we have not succeeded in setting up a strong social system where there is no place of mischief. Right and wrong, Good and Bad is two sides of ou...
Post a Comment
Read more
One of the realities.... Despite realizing the fact that each one of us makes one's own strategies, planning at one’s own level in order to control the circumstances which directly or indirectly may affect daily life. Sometimes we do succeed in overcoming the circumstances and sometimes we find ourselves helpless before the circumstances. Sometimes things take a turn in such a way that our all strategies and planning, self confidence and endeavor lose their significance. Sometimes even our calculated and well planned efforts give such disappointing results which we had never expected. Consequently we get frustrated, stressed, and eventually reach on a stage when sadness completely subjugates us. Even though we leave no stone unturned in finding out the reasons, shortcomings, flaws for our plight and frustration and to an extent we also do succeed in identifying some of the weak streaks which causes of our stress ‘ unpredictability in life’ is also one of the streaks and rea...
Post a Comment
Read more
Doing Good – Feeling Better What does ‘doing good’ mean ? Is making others happy ‘ doing good’ ? or the acts which one does for one’s own happiness is ‘ doing good’. It has different meaning for  the different people, some may have better feeling by sharing their happiness with others on the other hand some have better feeling by hurting others, gratify themselves by harming. Why such evil minded do it because they attach themselves immensely to the worldly needs and since all of us have same priorities therefore scuffle begins to get portion from the worldly needs which one side causes hardship and problems for some on the other hand give better feeling to others. This is general phenomena. But one thing is clear that the secret behind ‘ feeling better is ‘ doing good’. When one feels good , happy it increases immunity inside in that proportion that body can easily fight against viral attacks. All of us like to feel better accordingly everyone tries to take steps i...
Post a Comment
Read more
                                                                    - Kamini - 'Try to understand what I am telling. You shouldn't have left her' 'Are you cracking a joke.' Dipak grinned over the comment, after a pause he   begins. 'Have you not been observing her apathy, her callous behavior.   She has completely forgotten the rapport we had made for each other. What do you think I have left her, rubbish ,She left me in lurch instead. 'What apathy you are talking about.'   Rehan interrupted. 'She doesn't behave in same manner since we had met first time and the way our friendship kept progressing. Now Whenever I go ...
Post a Comment
Read more