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                          Chhan-Chhan, Chhanan-Chhan-Chhan -Chhan , Mun  Gaye kiyon.
                            Sun-Sun, hava -sun-sun-sun ,  Lahraye kiyon,

Organisor had played  above song  inside the dinning hall  keeping in view of  farewell dinner  of particicipants who had  came to attend  3 day seminar on Obstetrics and Gynaecology at  Galaxy  Resorts Beach hotel in Khandala.

Zeeshan Ahmed, Sumit Anand,  Ajay  Mishra and  Jhanvi Pundit had  come to attend seminar as delegates representing Jeevan Pardaan Hospital.

All four entered  the dinning hall  took their seat around  a round table. After finishing their meals they came out from hall Later they moved towards their respective rooms after spending couple of minutes in  park in front  of dining hall.

'Yaar Zeeshan, you are looking sad today. It seems  three days  are not enough. You need  more such tedious lectures' Sumit Anand  said laughingly.

'Not as such, in fact I am feeling jaded ' Zeeshan replied  getting inside in his room.

'See you tomorrow at reception counter.' Sumit said  entering into  his room.

'Ok,By.

Zeeshan smirked on  concealing the  fact of his  sadness.  Today the girl he adored all through his life was going to marry  the boy she had adored  Zeeshan was completely  unaware about.

Zeeshan  stretched out himself on bed, took out  book from under the   pillow. He kept flipping pages  of book but couldnt concentrate.

He opened his laptop begun to look at the snaps which he had been taking  on his every visit at his home.  Photos of his parents, cousins, friends. Zeeshan,s eye stops on snap of a small   innocent  kid. That photo brings  smile on his lips, his eyes shine in mirth. He looks that photo in different size, different shape he mumbled' 'Shireen'. He opens other folder of photos. His smiles increases little more, photos of  Shireen in school  uniform, in Salwar Qmees.in T- shirt and  jeans. Zeeshan closes his eyes, in closed eyes he had gone in his past memory.

'Can you not study in home, why do you  daily go to  Shireen 's House.'   Ambreen Khatoon, mother of Zeeshan told  him he was putting books inside his school bag.

'Because Akram Uncle told me to  come in evening he teaches both of us  together.' Zeeshan replied.

'Ok but dont go anywhere else,  give this tiffin box to  Aunty,' Ambreen Khatoon gave him  tiff in filled with kofta'

Zeeshan hanged his school bag on his back,  took tiff in   in his hand and moved out from home.

Zeeshan had daily visited at house of Akram Hasan, close neighbor,  a  close friend of  Syed Jamil Ahmed, father of  Zeeshan, a reputed lawyer  of the district.  Akram Hasan  ran private school in same locality  wherein Zeeshan  was student  of Nursery. Akram Hasan had given  special  attention to him  because of his friendship with his father. He  had also called him in evening in his home  to get him completed his  home work. 

Shireen being also a nursery student of same school  came home together with Zeeshan . In evening shireen also would sit like obedient student beside Zeeshan. Sometime Zeeshan  screamed over naughty acts of Shireen who teased him by hiding his notebook, pencil cutters etc. Akram  Hasan would admonish her , sometimes  would smile over their naughty scuffle. Their cat fight would bring happiness on Akram hasan's face.

Zeeshan studied up to Std 4 in that school later on advice of  Akram Hssan, Syed Jamil Ahmed got him admitted  in local high school. He was good in his study right from beginning so in high school  too  he  kept  performing better.

Shireen also joined  local girls high school same time.  After joining  high school   both would not meet as frequently they used to meet before, Zeeshan  later joined tuition classes for science subjects. Akram Hasan had often called him to know his preparation, on some occasion he would sit both  Shireen and Zeeshan together and gave them topic to write essay on which Shireen frowned She would get scolded when Akram Hasan caught him peering at note book of Zeeshan.

Akram Hasan had treated her like son because of her naughty acts, outspoken behavior .She had much freedom than her other two sisters. Mrs Akram Hasan didnt like such freedom of  Shireen she had advised him after seeing  activity of Shireen the way he had let her free. Akram Hasan made her silent when he retorted smilingly that she was my son.

Zeeshan passed with first division in matriculation with high percentage of marks. Akram Hasan was playing role of education advisor to Jamil Ahmed hence according to his advice Zeeshan was sent to Delhi for his further study. Because of low percentage of marks Shireen got admission in Magadh Mahila College.
When Zeeshan would come home in holiday he immediately went to see Akram Hasan to let him know about his preparation. He  blessed him with the advises like teacher-cum-parents.

Zeeshan also succeeded in intermediate Examination with distinction in   biology, physics the subjects he liked most. Very  Next year he  qualified in all India pre medical test for admission in M BBS.

As soon as news came of success of  Zeeshan  Syed  Jamil Ahmed had visited house of  Akram Hasan with sweets. Both hugged each other in joy. He  couldn't control his emotion, tear of joy  begun to  flow on his face.  He embraced Zeeshan as if  his own son had succeeded. 

'Where is Afshan, and Shireen, ? Syed Jamil Ahmed asked 

'Both had gone to house of  Raqeeb Saheb. His daughter is friend of Afshan. She invited them on her birthday. Akram Hasan replied

Syed Jamil Ahmed and Zeeshan came out from house after spending sometimes with him.

Ambreen Khatoon was very religious  woman  so she had  organized Milad  Majlis  , a religious  thanksgiving programme to Almighty god. All relatives and neighbors were invited on this occasion. A  majlis had been organized as per stature of Syed Jamil Ahmed as well one of the great achievements of  his only son.

Zeeshan looked at Shireen, smiled but he got stunned on her indifferent behavior, her non challalnt attitude. She did give smile , but didn't converse  even she didnt reply in proper way and moved towards convergence. 

Zeeshan couldn't understand over sudden change of her attitude. One side he was astonished on her strange behavior on the other side she had left overwhelming impact on him, her innocent pointed nose face, the way she had covered her head wrapping pink dupatta on it, a complete childish look.

Zeeshan joined medical college as per his rank. His every visit at Akram Hasan,s home gave him surprise when he would look at Shireen. On his every visit she looked much beautiful, much attractive, but  she would not  allow him to speak her freely.

On one summer vacation he spent more days at home it was  also  coincidence that she had gotten chance to attend marriage of  Afshan, eldest  sister of  Shireen. This was an arranged marriage. Ashar   was nephew of  Mrs Akram Hasan, he was working in Delhi in excise department. Akram  Hasan had given him lot of works,  Zeeshan had  also  carried out  all  works responsibly  like son.

This was the only occasion after long time where Shireen  was coerced to interact  with   him.  He  sometimes thought her behavior absolute haughty. The more she showed her indifference the more he got fascinated towards her.

After getting over all the formalities of marriage Zeeshan clandestinely snapped photo of her and  saved it in his lap top. That day was also day of his great joy when he heard conversation of his parents where his mother was admiring Shireen.

With passing of days his affinity towards Shireen kept increasing similarly the way her personality kept changing, looking more attractive.

At times Zeeshan fell prey of his inferior complexity when during ragging he was called by name of  Miss chin Choi chi by his seniors. His white complexion and flat nose gave him complete girlish look perhaps that was why he would  often get teased by seniors. The comments of seniors coerced him to evaluate himself he would link such comments to the indifference attitude of Shireen lest his Chinese look was not getting hurdle between them, lest she was feeling more attractive than him because of his look.

Ambreen Khatoon again had organized big Milad Majlis when Zeeshan finally got degree of MBBS. His house was full of guests, relatives but Zeeshan's eye was searching a particular face in crowed,  face of his love, face of his childhood friend, face of nut-khut girl who couldn't weigh the love affection he had for her.

Zeeshan was being  congratulated for his  success. Akram Hasan hugged him, gave him blessings. Later he met Shireen, as per his expectation  much attractive, charming undoubtedly stunning. He could not believe that small kid he used to scuffle with, in childhood days will come out so fatal. Zeeshan had decided that he would propose this time to Shireen irrespective of her past indifferent, dry behavior. Man proposes god disposes. His all plan fell flate Shireen moved off immediately after giving him congratulation.

After one month Ambreen Khatoon disclosed the gossip  about Shireen to Zeeshan, he  could not believe on his  ears. How can it happen he said to himself. How did Akram Hasan approve such proposal? 

Shireen was going to be engaged next month with  Arafaat Haider, a part time lecturer in unaffiliated college. Shirin's first love, a childhood friend, also a distant  relative who had  stolen her heart even  in her childhood days whom shireen had also happily given in completely, a bitter fact which Zeeshan had never imagined nor he was still believing. Akram Hasan  had  to approve  this relation when he came to know their old relation. There was no question of objection as Arafat also come out of their relative and formost think was she  could not think else.

After the engagement,  Zeeshan kept trying to wipe out indelible mark of  one sided  love he had , A love which he nurtured from his childhood days, an emotion he couldn't share with anyone.

later Zeeshan joined Jeevan Pardaan hospital as  trainee duty doctor .

After almost one year  Zeeshan  had succeeded  in forgetting her . Few days back  he came to know that  Shireen is  finally going to become Mrs Arfat Haider. Tonight Shereen was going to become life partner of person she loved, she adored.

Zeeshan looked at clock  it was  about 10.30. He  switched off his lap top, put it inside his back  he switched  off light of his room, came back on bed, closed his eyes, trying to sleep. he remembered the  final year of his medical college , farewell party wherein his friend Sunil sang a song,

'                                   Har kisi ko nahi milta yahan piyar zindagi mein.
                                    Khush naseeb hain woh jinko hai mili yeh bahar zindagi mein.

                                                                                                          

                                                                 End





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